Ever since I was a little girl, I knew I wanted to be a mommy! I loved playing house, where I enjoyed being the "mommy" and carried my "baby" in such a gentle way. I even named my dolls making them as human as possible because I longed to be a mother in my heart already. I've dreamed about it, talked about, written my poetry inspired by it and now it's such a reality in my life. I'm gonna be a mommy! I constantly look in the mirror and admire my beautiful baby bump..something I envisioned having while daydreaming. Being such a detailed person, I also knew exactly what I wanted for my first baby girl's nursery room. Right before we got pregnant I knew theme, color pattern, accesories and all.
Theme I've chosen is: Butterfly
It's going to be a butterfly garden with a Victorian touch..so me hahaha!
My decision came easy because I love butterflies but this love grew during a trip to Costa Rica, my birth country) where there's a huge variety of butterflies and you can easily find butterfly sactuaries. We were taken to one where you could see their coccoons and all. It was beautiful! As I walked around I felt a little tingle on my finger. When I looked down this is what I saw:
It was an experience out of this world. I looked at it closer and noticed that somehting was missing, it had a permanent injury. See the broken wing? Everything became a blur and for a minute it was just me and that butterfly when all of a sudden I felt the Lord telling me:
"look at this beautiful butterfly, look at it closely. This butterfly represents who you are to Me. This butterfly is beautiful, yet not perfect, it's missing part of it's wing which makes it impossible for it to fly like the others. I want you to be just like that. You are beautiful yet you are not perfect. You're not flawed, I just made you imperfect so that you would always need to depend on Me. I want to sustain you, to nourish you, to help you survive. Don't do life on your own, lean on Me. I'll be here to hold you and you will be ok!"
It was incredible! It all happened in what seemed liek seconds and it made an impact on me for life:D Some people are a little skeptical about "God talking like this to people" but let me tell you...it happened to me and I wouldn't change it for the world! Ever isnce that day, butterflies have a very special meaning to me! Because not only are they beautiful but they also have a very special meaning:
The Butterfly Christian Symbol represents and symbolizes the Resurrection. The butterfly has three phases during its life:
The caterpillar - The caterpillar which just eats symbolises normal earthly life where people are preoccupied with taking care of their physical needs.
The chrysalis or cocoon - The chrysalis or cocoon resembles the tomb.
The butterfly - The butterfly represents the resurrection into a glorious new life free of material restrictions.
It is the only animal that is transformed 100% from one animal to another....the way we should be transformed into a new person when we surrender our lives to Christ and ask Him to be our Savior!
I want Karina to know about Salvation, about a Savior named Jesus Christ and that only through Him and in Him she'll find eternal life. I want her to know this already. I'm praying for her Salvation as I carried her in my womb. It's such a joy for me to know that her due date April 4 is on Easter Sunday! To be honest with you..seeing the way God has worked in my life...it doesn't surprise me at all. God works in mysteriously beautiful ways:D
Here's a sneak peek at what I've chosen for her nursery:
My mom has gracious offered to make all the crib bedding and she wants me to help her so I can learn but also so Karina will cherish it even more knowing that her grandma and her mom made this for her with lots of love!