Thursday, July 30, 2009

God Performed A Miracle!!!!

I've been away from blogger world and from YOU my bloggy friends but I promise I have a really good reason:D Sunday night I checked out my calendar to see what my week would look like. I quickly realized I had a Pap scheduled for Monday at 11.



Monday morning I get up, do a little cleaning, and as I'm starting to get ready I hear a little voice inside tell me, "ask for a pregnancy test". I'm a little lost and stop to think about it but continue to get ready. A few minutes later, there it goes, "ask for a pregnancy test" by now it's intriging me a little more but I quickly remember that it's on ly day 31 of my cycle, my periods have been late before and I don't think I feel pregnant. I also think there's a lil bit of protection on my heart's part. You see, after trying for a little over 3 years...you've had many negative pregnancy tests, you've been hopeful only to find out you still have an empty womb BUT I never gave up, I still had faith and continued crying out to God! I honestly worked really hard at staying positive, being hopeful and rejoicing even through the neg. tests. God filled me with strength to go through each day and filled my heart with joy! I knew there was always tomorrow and I focused my energy on serving God, on giving Him my best, on obeying His calling for my life. I noticed I had a few minutes so I grabbed a snack and this is what I wanted to read? Huhhhh...Ya think God was up to something???



So I finished getting ready and took off. It was an odd day from the beginning...I get to the doc super early with traffic and all and I get called back right away, I wait like 40 minutes to be seen something that had never happened there before. Dawn, my wonderful Nurse Practioner comes in and looks over my notes. I quickly tell her that I'm loosing alot of hair. She proceeds to ask me if I'm stressed and I say, "YES, I lost my grandfather in Jan, then my aunt in March, then two very good, mother-like ladies early summer and have been going through some "stuff". I tell her that it's been a trying year. She gives me some comforting words and proceeds to the Pap. I noticed she did it quite fast....being in the medical field and assisting in Paps I noticed right away that she didn't do the entire procedure. She then goes on to give me results from a previous exploratory procedure and says everything's ok. I ask her for a referral for lab work to check my hormone level. She asks me if I've had a pregnancy test done...obliviously I say no. She then tells me to go ahead and leave her a sample while she writes out the referral. I simply say ok..again I'm still oblivious.

I go and and take care of business ya know fill up the cup and not even a minute later I come out and Dawn wants a high 5??? HUH??? I think...could this be it? Nah..lol. I give her the high 5 and then say "what?" lol. The entire office knows me because they've been seeing me for 3 yrs now. By this time they are gathered. I must have had a blank look on my face cause they giggle. Dawn goes and gets the pregnancy test...expect this time POSITIVE and all I do is stare at it and even take a few steps back lol. I was in complete shock. You see, when you wait so long to conceieve you've had time to envision this momment, you've relieved it in your head, you've been almost tasted it. I thought I would cry, scream, jump, hug everybody but it was the total apposite. I was speechless, shaking, my heart was racing, felt my blood pressure drop, was pale white lol. Thinking...Susan doesn't believe it...Dawn holds my hand, looks at me into the eyes and says, "sweety, you're pregnant" WOW...I will never forget those words. So YES God has created life inside my womb:



By now...I'm starting to get it. She then thanks me for making her part of this journey..I apologize to her for bugging her for 3 years lol. She then says.....we didn't do it, you did it sweety. I didn't do it....GOD DID!!!!! She takes the chart and I see her write what seems like slow motion PREGNANT with a smily face. Now that made it official because I know that my chart is a legal document and she cannot lie on there lol. I got my book from Dawn, schedule my first doctor's appt. for August 11 where we're going to hear the baby's heartbeat (so amazing) and get our actual due date and all the testing done. The secreatary told me she felt like crying because she knew how much we wanted this baby. I walked out of that office a completely changed person. I saw in the truch for 30 minutes in total amazement that God had remembered us! Everything around me became a blur and it was just me, God and my baby who know lived inside of me. I totally cried out to the Lord but this time...happy tears, tears of joy, of gratitude because He had chosen my womb to hold a miracle....maybe a future King David, or a John the Baptist, a Moses, a Ruth or even an Esther. I then said, "what now?" where do I go, what do I do? I want to take this and run with it as if I won the gold medal in a race. Believe me...I won much more than that:D I wanted to buy something significant for my beautiful unborn child on the day we found out so I went to Walgreens and felt the need to truly confirm the news....I needed this so I bought more pregnancy tests and took them righ there. Yep....still positive!!! I then went ahead and made a very special purchase, the very first one for our baby. I will post about my purchase in the near future....need to work on it;D When I went up to the counter, I felt like I was going to explode so I told the very nice cashier..."I just found out that I'm pregnant!" I told her about our struggle and she was almost in tears to also hear about our miracle. God told me something very real, very special through her, "Your life will never be the same again" Wow......biy did I notice this right away, I felt different already..like a parent wanting to reach the stars for their baby! A parents wanting to teach this baby about all the goodness of the world, about a living God! My husband called me to ask me about the appt. I was dying to tell him but I knew that telling him the way God has instructed me to would be 100x's sweeter so I kept it form it. I then managed to drive home...ahhhhh was this drive sweet and different from all the other drives home.


These are all the pregnancy tests I took lol...SO YEP I'M VERY PREGNANT!!! Thank YOU Jesus, thank you my Lord and Savior for the wonderful miracle!!!!


We are so amazed to see that God remembered us! After many tears, many sleepless nights staying up wondering when, after many neg. pregnancy tests, many disappointments, many struggles to concieve, my husband also had several factors that affected our conception. At the very beggining of our journey I wasn't even ovulating since I've had hormonal issues since I was a baby, went through several rounds of Clomid, hormone injections, a failed artificial insemination. GOD and ONLY GOD made it happen!!!!! About a year ago, my husband called me and told me that the Lord spoke to him and told him we needed to trust Him 100% and that we needed to stay away from all the meds and procedures. I felt the Holy Spirit speak to me with authority through my husband so I agreed. God wanted ALL the glory and He got it. It's been a year since we decided to fully trust God but I honestly think it happened when I did my "Just want you to know" post where I talked about surrendering it all to God. That day after reading my post a couple of times...I cried out to the Lord and felt the need to fully surrender this womb to Him. It's His and I asked Him to do His will with it even if it meant never concieving.I cried out so much that when I stopped I simply laid there exhausted yet feeling free! So many times we want something and we want it now...we can be very selfish. Maybe God is simply waiting for us to lay it before the cross and walk away so He can make it happen with His strength. It gives me the chills to know that when I cried out to Him, He had already created life inside my womb. It also gives me chills to know that when we went to the arcade and I won a minnie mouse I said, "for our baby girl" I was already carrying our baby...WOW! Last week, I had the joy of spending time with very special children: Our baby cousin Daniel (twin to baby Emily) and friends Oliver, Niki, Madison.






Honestly when I held the babies, I felt somewhat different, I can't explain it, just felt different. Maybe a deeper connection? To think that when I held these babies in my arms, I had our treasure in my womb already. WOW! God is simply amazing!

We also know that this baby is a miracle baby and will be someone big for God because God is already using it to minister to so many people. My mom said she cried out to God a week before she even found out the news telling God to bless us with a baby, at least one even if she never got to meet it. My good friend Carla who had a miscarriage three weeks ago just called me and told me that she asked the Lord to please make it happen for us. That if she didn't get the opportunity to at least give us that joy! Our good friend Martin who are deployed in Iraq told my husband Manuel that one week ago he had a dream where Manuel was telling him that we were pregnant! My cousin Diana who's Catholic had lid a candle to God asking Him to bless us with a baby on the day we found out..she had no clue. My sis in law Veronica had told her kids the previous day that she was very happy her girlfriends were expecting but that the one thing that would make it so much sweeter, the cherry on the top, would be for us to concieve. She also told me that she wanted many things but that her most fervant prayer had been for us to have a baby. My friend Irene told me that ne night she dropped what she was doing and felt the need to pray for us to concieve. And the list goes on.....all these people's faith has been strength, theyare in awe because God heard their prayers, God spoke to their hearts, God is minsitering to so many people through this. That's why this baby is God's and He will do His will with it! I also know that many you my bloggy friend and family prayed for us and God heard every single prayer. THANK YOU so much from the bottom of my heart for interceeding for us! I pray that God blesses you for it<3 Thanx Jess for all your encouraging words, for sharing your testimony of hope as the Lord also blessed your womb so you could have Emmy and for cheering me on! Thanx Lisa for sharing this journey with me...I will pray, pray, pray for you so we can have big bellies together:D

The Lord put in my heart to call our babies our TREASURES! In order to find a treaure there is a:

~ Journey = our 3 yrs trying to concieve which I wouldn't change for the world! These 3 yrs got me on my knees, made me stornger, alloud me to hear God's voice, allowed me to see a very special side of God, made me humble and taught me all about patience, really makes this experience much more sweeter, helped me relate to Hannah and great woman devoted to God, as well as a great lifetime lesson...surrending it ALL to God!

~ Map = The Word of God.It's what I grabbed to when the going got a lil touch, it's what brought me so much hope and joy as I read about His wonderful promises and as He opened the ocean so His peaple could cross....I knew He could open my womb!

~ Reward = a treasure is something desired, hoped for, a treasure is precious, valuable, cherished. There's a long journey involved to ge to this treasure but you go through it all in order to find it and finally enjoy it! Our babies are our treasures from Heaven, right out of God's hands!

On the 11th we have our first doctor's visit to hear the heart beat, get testing done and get our actual due date. Lord-willing we will meet our miracle baby in:



GOD HAS THE VICTORY!!! He and only He created this life regardless of, His powerful is immesurable....unstoppable!

Today marks 5 weeks...35 to go Lord-willing. I pray constantly for our treasure!

WE ARE SO EXCITED!!!!!!! Can't contain the joy and gratitude to our Lord<3

Just for fun:

My 4 wk belly lol.....ahhhhh I dreamed of doing this so many times...WOOHOO!

19 comments:

Natalie said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!! SO EXCITED !!! What a blessing to know that our Lord heard you prayers, and the prayers of all of us praying for your womb to be blessed and here you are expecting !! The lord is blessing so many couple this year with babies. Congrtulations to you and Manny !! we're so happy for you both :) I love that you surprised your husband, that was really cool :)

Jen&Carter said...

Congratulations, I am so happy for you and Dh. Reading your post brought tears to my eyes. As I to prayed many times and had many negatives I so can relate. I can't believe it, GOd does answer prayers, I am excited for you. I can't wait to hear about your appt on the 11th. Praying that all goes well and you have a good 9 months. Enjoy it. I am less then 3 wks away from meeting my little one and sometimes it still feels like I am dreaming. Our little ones are miracles from God.

God, My Savior Forever! said...

Thanx Natalie...I appreciate your prayers. Yes...about two yrs ago I looks through ideas for delivering the news to my hubby and I wanted something very unique. very special. The Lord put it in my heart and I did just that! He loved it:D I will post about it next.

God, My Savior Forever! said...

Hi Jen!

Wow..to know that your were in tears really touches my heart. It's the Holy Spirit my dear sister. We've been through a long road but it was amazing huh? God is very real and He's working miracles for His children:D YES....our beautiful babies are miracles right from His hand<3 I promise I will blog about our first doc visit. How awesome..I'm very excited for you...looking forward to seeing pictures of your beautiful baby soon!!! I'll be praying for you:D

HUGS<3

Amber said...

Congratulations ! ! ! ! !

So happy for you. It is the most amazing feeling in the world when you discover for the first time you are pregnant. And what an awsome story of how you found out! One your daughter/son will enjoy hearing as they grow. Only thing that tops what your feeling right now is holding your newborn baby in your arms for the first time and looking into their eyes.
I wish you a very smooth and plesant pregnancy.
God has blessed you with the most wonderful gift there is...a new life.
Congratulations to you and your hubby.
ak

God, My Savior Forever! said...

Thank you so much Amber! You are so right...holding our precious miracle for the first time will top it all. I've lost count of all the times I've envisioned it. My heart will melt as I hold our newborn, our gift from the Lord. I will forever be thankful with Him for remembering me:D Thank you for your sweet wishes<3

Jess said...

Dearest twin, I know you are more excited and happier than ever. I'm so proud for you, and you know I have been praying for you.

I know this was God and only God that did this. And He deserves all the glory and honor!

Love you and so happy for you...you know I understand and love you!

I'm here if you ever want to talk or ask questions along your journey.

Love, Jess

Anonymous said...

Yippee!!! Congratulations!!!! I am so happy for you and Manny. You guys are very deserving of this miracle. Seeing what God has done in your life has given me hope and encouragement. It is a reminder to Rick and I to keep the faith and trust the Lord always in every situation. Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever! You and your little one will be in my prayers. Enjoy your new path to "mommy hood" my friend! Love, Lisa

kristilea said...

I'm crying...of course I'm a very emotional person...but I know the feeling of thinking you can't have children, and then trusting God, and then seeing that first pregnancy test come back positive. I am so happy for you! I just really don't have the words. Praise God for his goodness and mercy! I'm just so happy for you. I can't wait to hear how you told your husband. That was one of my favorite parts about it, was telling my husband. Oh, sweetie, so happy! May God bless this pregnancy of yours!

Connie@Little Red Hearts From God said...

I am sooooo excited for you... I went down this road so I know the emotions... that baby is now about to turn 22 in a few days.. LOL..

I WILL be praying for you every day...

and yes.. this baby is a miracle...I don't know how anyone can watch the process of babies being born.. much less conceived and think anything else...your life is about to change forever... and you will be so blessed...

Thank you God...
Connie

Jo Princess Warrior said...

This is just the best news! Can't imagine waiting 3 years to conceive. So happy for you. xoxoxo

Christian Mommy Writer said...

I'M SO EXCITED FOR YOU!

I wanted to cry reading that post. I'm so glad that God blessed you with the desires of your heart! And look how God answered the prayers of so many!

I'll be praying for a wonderful pregnancy for you. By the way, have you read the book Supernatural Childbirth by Jackie Mize? If not, you should check it out. It has great prayers in it that you can pray for your unborn child. Someone let me read it when I was pregnant and it really blessed me.

Congrats again girl! :-)

Timmy's Girl @ Luv My Quiver Full Of Arrows said...

SIS...you know we are soo happy for you both!

xoxo, Veronica

Lindsey said...

YAYAYAYA CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

Alicia said...

Oh my gosh...I want to cry reading this post!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!

I'm so happy for you and your husband!!

Children are a heritage from the Lord!!

Beautiful testimony of faith and longsuffering!!!!!!!!!!

OH...and how did you tell your husband and what was his reaction???

COUNTRY MOM said...

I am so blessed I found your blog. Congratulations!!! Your post was so touching and brought a smile to my heart and a tear to my eye. You are an amazing woman and will make an awesome MOM. I can't wait to hear all about your updates, and follow this whole pregnancy. Many, Many Blessings and I pray for you a healthy pregnancy and baby.

Chris in FL said...

YAY!!!!! \0/ PRAISE YOU LORD FOR BLESSING THIS FAITHFUL FAMILY WITH A MIRACLE BABY.

When I read your post my mouth dropped open. I am so happy for you. Yay!!! I am looking forward to seeing those pics of you and your growing belly (baby).

How sweet the way you surprised your hubby. How wonderful!!

Some friends of ours from church waited 10 years before God blessed them with a baby. I remember the day they announced it. Her husband was singing on the worship band and after he sang a song said that he had some news....His wife was pregnant. The entire church of about 500 people stood up and rejoiced with him. This baby was so long waiting for us all. Just recently, after 6 years of having their first son (named Isaac) God blessed them with a second son. It is so nice to see her with her new baby in the nursing mom's room. It was so cute when they announced her second pregnancy...their oldest son came up and spoke on the mic and said "my mommy is going to have a baby" Again the entire church erupted with loud yells and praise.

Anyway, what wonderful news. Take good care of yourself.

Blessings from Florida

Kelly said...

Congratulations blog friend :) How exciting for you & what a testimony. It is sometimes hard to remember that God's timing is so perfect. Reading your blog is a sweet reminder of His constant love & care. Blessings.

Anonymous said...

Such a GREAT and WONDERFUL testimony! God is ALWAYS true to His word! God bless the three of you.